Either Robin leaves or I find Theo a home, cancel the fence at Lowe's and pay whatever they charge me, and I vanish. I can't do this much longer. I really can't.
Theo deserves a home where people are alive and well. I am dying by degrees living with this man who looks like death. No joy. Darkness every day...I can't take much more. I can't. My kids don't fucking care. They only care about what is happening to their father. Do any of them think I am serious when I say I have had enough? No. They don't care. They don't say or do anything. I am so sick of living like this. This is not living.