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Calories

Going to start with a daily calorie count of 1800 and start dropping it down to 1500 

3 strips bacon                                      135

scrambled eggs                                    100

cheddar cheese                                    100

coffee with creamer                                 30

bowl of zuppa toscana soup                 446

margarita                                               400

chips                                                      480

Total                                                1690

Tuesday, Sept 29

Two breakfast tortillas with chorizo, spinach, onion, and cheese                       530

Coffee with cream                                                                                                  30

Cottage cheese mixed with yogurt, granola, and walnuts                                    420 

Margaritas and triscuits and cheese (Presidential debate tonight--got slammed)  Horrible godawful thing in the White House just sucks the life out of me

Wednesday, Sept. 30

1.5 breakfast tortillas (same as yesterday) and coffee                                                 400 cal

cottage cheese mixed with vanilla yogurt, cranberries, pecans, and granola              300

I must set goals

 Saturday: 10:30

Wandering aimlessly, as usual.  I must set goals.  I must do better.  I say the same things all of the time but never change. 

Today:

Wash face (done)

Brush hair (done)

Put on make-up (👍)

Wear a bra (yes)

Change shorts and shirt (yes)

Read

Play Solitaire or Word Scrambler (yes)

Cook breakfast and lunch (breakfast is done--two egg omelet with spinach, ham, onion, and cheese)

Take some pics

Sweep and mom the kitchen

Try to move around more

Try to take a walk

Try to eat and drink less

The Silence

 Surprisingly, to me, I haven't heard the ghost of Molly's nails going down the hallway, nor the sound of her rabies tag jingling as she would shake herself off when she woke up. I thought I would hear that over and over again. I hear the silence. I see the empty bed. We have gotten rid of many things, but we still have not parted with her huge crate at the end of our bed nor her bed with the UK (University of Kentucky) blanket on it that has been in the living room for 13 years. I can't do it yet.

A poem that speaks to me today

The Soul Selects Her Own Society
by Emily Dickinson

The soul selects her own society,
Then shuts the door;
On her divine majority
Obtrude no more.

Unmoved, she notes the chariot's pausing
At her low gate;
Unmoved, an emperor is kneeling
Upon her mat.

I've known her from an ample nation
Choose one;
Then close the valves of her attention
Like stone.